This is a really random and out of the blue post, I didn’t plan it I just need an outlet for my current thoughts.
I started a Booktube channel before I even started my blog last year and back then I was less daunted by filming than posting. Times have changed however and now I find it easier to find time to blog than to post videos. This is why I have been MIA from my Booktube channel for two months now! I feel so guilty and I make plans to film and upload, and I never follow through. Since I never experience that with my blog I have been thinking that I should just lay my channel to rest. Obviously my heart isn’t in it. This is really hard for me though, I would feel like a quitter and that makes me uncomfortable. So I keep trying to figure out how I can figure out at least a few videos a month.
Then this evening I was thinking about how I want to spend a lot more time working on my writing and participate in Nanowrimo this year. If I am trying to find time for Booktube, how will I find time for that AND writing? And which of them is the most important to me? If I did leave Booktube should I say goodbye? I love the community so it would be tough for me to do. When I think about how I spend my time I think about it like a financial budget. You only have so many hours in a day and I have an eight month old so free hours to myself are few and far between. So the question in how do I want to spend my hours? Reading? Blogging? Booktubing? Writing? A person can only do so much. I post on my blog 3-5 times a week as it is and yet there are so many more posts I would like to do so the idea of cutting back on my blog posts is SO hard. On top of that I have to factor in time to review books I have read AND I post a lot on Bookstagram as well. I really need to decide what is important and ‘let go’ of the rest.
Have you ever spread yourself too thin? Have you ever had to ‘let something go’? If so how did you deal with letting it go?
Thanks for listening guys!